When zeal and will has left the heart; and defeat seems real and near
When things look no better now than they did from the start and my spirit is filled with fear;
When victory seems so far and vague and failure seems so close
And my doubtful thoughts are like a plague that causes my momentum to coast.

When my enemies begin to make the conclusion that I’m finished, I’m done and it’s over
And others conclude that it’s that strong delusion that was sent down from heaven by Jehovah;
When my self esteem is diminished and my confidence is finished and the odds are not stacked in my favor
And my joy doesn’t flow, so my head just hands low and even my faith that God exists begins to waiver.

After Shaking hands, hugging, smiling, laughing, holding several side bar conversations with different church members, and meeting with their committees and ministries, Jan and William get into their Mercedes to go home. They lived about forty miles from the church so they had a lot of time to talk on the way to and from church. “That was some kind of worship service today, huh cakes”, exclaimed William. “Cakes” was his pet name for her since they dated in college. “Yep, the sermon was really good”, “…and the singing? I almost jumped out of my seat”. “Is that right?”, William replied. Then there was a moment of silence. Jan waited for the silence to be broken by her husband’s insecurity.